Unable to get back on the wagon!!

This is so pathetic! It should not take this long for me to get back on the wagon and shake the "vacation mode". I have been SO lazy and SO out of it this week! This coming week I am starting my "summer job" for the next 5 weeks and I really should have been in high gear getting my house straightened up last week, but all I did was sit on my fanny all day and eat.

The other night, I experienced an embarrassing "caught red-handed" kind of situation with my husband. He had wanted to take the kids to get ice cream and then decided it was too late and that he would just go buy ice cream since we had toppings given to us by the church. I tried suggesting other things like going to McDonald's drive through, etc. etc. ANYTHING except admitting to him that the toppings were gone! He was so sure that we had them...I was sick with dread. I finally told him that they were gone, but I didn't exactly say that I ate it all--my daughter did help me with a little bit. A very little bit. What can I say? I absolutely love ice cream and it was my two favorite toppings (hot fudge and strawberry). I love them mixed like a chocolate-covered strawberry flavor.

Anyway...I get up every morning intending to eat once and by afternoon have given up. Though it should not be, I have been stressed this week. Very tense and I have no idea why. My kids have driven me crazy--though I am not sure if that is a reason for the stress or they just got to me more this week because I was stressed already. Today we had two picnics to attend. I ate at both, but light at the second one.

No excuses tomorrow. Since I am struggling with the whole jumping back on the wagon, I am going to do a wimpy thing and postpone the cutting out sugar for another week. I know--terrible. However, I think that may be one of the reasons I have been resisting "the wagon" this week. I am concentrating on "beautiful food" though. It is a thought that I had this week--eat beautiful food to be beautiful. Speaking of which, my favorite food at the picnics was veggies and dip--that is not normal for me. Apparently, I am changing for the better--tiny step by tiny step. By beautiful food, I mean fruits and veggies--and some nuts and beans. Dead animal is not beautiful at all--and no, I am not a vegetarian--just stating a fact.